A pEeK iNtO mY cRaZy LiFe

VACATION!!!

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 21:38:48 GMT

Mom and I are escaping to St Augustine this weekend!
I am so excited... outlets, hours on the beach, and quality time with my mom!

(hopefully sneak in time with brandi and emily!)

I miss Ashton. But I am broke. I really need to go to New York to find a Starbucks to work at in January and try to get some other things rolling but I cannot afford it and it is frustrating!

Danielle is getting married and I am so happy for her! We went wedding dress shopping and it was seriously so much fun! But I am going to miss her being so available...

I <3 half.com for making me 300 dollars richer in one week off of old textbooks and Progress energy for deciding to give me my deposit back without telling me and now I do not have to pay for 3 months!!!!

My last semester of undergraduate school starts Monday! a little over 100 days!

That is all.

Tue, 28 Jul 2009 01:49:14 GMT

I kind of feel like Derek and I's relationship is in a rut.

I know we love each other but I think we have gotten to the point where it is almost to comfortable and we need to take a step back and appreciate the little things again.

The other night I made dinner, nothing spectacular, and when I said it was ready he got a plate and sat down to eat. I continued to get my plate and put a few dishes in the sink and sat down. five minutes later he was finished and got up, put his plate in the sink, thanked me and sat on the couch, leaving me at the table by myself with half a plate full of food.

It may not seem like a big deal but I feel like after I cook him dinner he should sit and enjoy it with me and then maybe offer to help... even if I do not let him.

He used to do these things... I know he appreciates it but I need more...

Am I asking too much?

This morning we were getting ready at the same time and were in each other's way. He got so mad and did not even say one nice thing to me all morning. He came out of the bathroom and I was laying on the bed and he asked what I was doing and I said waiting on you to help me to my car, and he said two trips wouldn't have worked... REALLY???

I left without saying goodbye... which i should not have done but I was so mad!!!!

I know he was just tired and frustrated but he should not take it out on me....

BTW... it is not all bad by any means... there are just more frustrating things happening lately...

UPDATE

Tue, 07 Jul 2009 15:37:07 GMT

Boyfriend: is wonderful, he is going through a rough time which is straining our relationship but I know it will be fine. We had a blast on our mini vacation to Tampa and will be going to Busch Gardens soon. I really do love him an oddly enough I could see myself with him forever.

Family: Dad is driving me crazy with his new family issues and my step sister is driving me crazy too. I am trying to be understanding that she is only 11 but it is hard.

School: I cannot wait to be done with this semester. I wanted an A in chem but I think I will have to settle for a B. I have to learn to juggle in the next few weeks for my Basic Learning Processes class and I am not excited about it. I am not coordinated. The GRE class is fine but it stresses me out because I take the test in about a month and I really do need a good score!

I am tired of observing physical therapy because I basically do a tech's job but because I have no availability I cannot be paid for it. It better pay off (ie I better get into UCF!) I do it 15-20 hours a week and because of that I can only work 10-15 hours at starbucks = POOR!

I miss my friends!!!!! as you may notice I cannot even have a friends section because I never see anyone.

I may have a roommate in a few weeks...

I think being pregnant/having babies is the new trend!

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 20:17:15 GMT

Nate and his girl
Niki Janeski
Jamie
Emma
Bill's Girlfriend
Sloane
and I know there is more that I cannot think of!

While you may not know these people these are all the people I know that are around my age having children!!!!

My Weekly Schedule

Tue, 26 May 2009 23:57:25 GMT

(Please kill me now!)

Monday: Class 11-12p, Observing 1-5p
Tuesday: Work 5-9a, Class 11-12p, GRE class 230-330p
Wednesday: Work 5-9a, Class 11-12p
Thursday: Work 5-9a, Class 11-12p, Observing 1-5p (starting in a few weeks)
Friday-Sunday: Palm Bay, vacation, or work, depending on the week

Does not seem too bad until you account for:
-Having to get an A in chemistry(studying and homework)
-My online class which has turned out to be a lot of work, easy work, but work
-Studying for the GRE like nothing else matters (5+ hours a week)
-Doing a chapter a week for my personal training certification
-Volunteering 8 hours/ week

See you all never! <3

Sorry for being mushy...

Fri, 15 May 2009 01:14:40 GMT

I am in love.

I know I have been saying this for a long time now but god it is so true!

We had a really hard day, but I will not give up and neither will he, and that is the beauty of love.

I stand up for myself, and so does he, but we talk it out and figure out a way to make it work.

I am so happy.

MIAMI tomorrow!

I HATE DISTANCE!!

Wed, 13 May 2009 00:45:32 GMT

Derek and I have an amazing perfect relationship BESIDES the distance.

It causes all of our problems!

And it will continue too for years to come.

I love him.

babies...

Sat, 02 May 2009 17:31:25 GMT

Everyone keeps having babies...

I love babies... but one of my own... not for years. thank you.

It is called birth control.

Unless you are happily married and settled down...

But even then before 25 is crazy!

the above is solely my opinion but so many people i know who are under the age of 25 are having babies most not even married, some not with the person. CRAZY

Finals Make Me Want To Cry

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 20:33:32 GMT

Why do I have to cram all of this information into my head at the end of every semester for ONE test.

2 classes down... and A's

3 finals to go... Preventive Healthcare, Organic Chemistry, and Physics... kill me now!

my boyfriend always knows how to make me happy.

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 01:58:54 GMT

This weekend was a lot of fun.
Friday Danielle and I ran a service event for the coalition for the homeless and raised over 3000 dollars.
We went out for drinks afterwards at the piano bar at city walk and it was a blast.
But Saturday I was EXHAUSTED. I got a pedicure with momma and went back to derek's and NEEDED a nap.
We both slept and did not want to get up.
We went out to dinner at 830... he had wanted me to make dinner and hang out alone. (no one was home)
But I fell asleep when we got home.
It was sad....
But this morning when I had to get up early to head back to Orlando... he took me out to breakfast.
:-)
I was super happy.
He never gets up before noon if he does not have to, and it was 8 am!!!
<3

EFF PHYSICS!!!!

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 01:35:43 GMT

on the other hand... i'v got to A's locked in so far... 3 classes to go

Balance.

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 01:59:30 GMT

This is what I strive for in life.

but then I need outstanding grades in order to get into grad school... so there goes the balance in my social life

If i rated balance on a 1 to 10 basis
1 would be no time/attention
10 would be all my time/attention

School 10
Social life 3
Boyfriend 5
Me time 4
On and on... i am trying very hard in school, but the rest of my life is suffering.

I am trying to change this... but it will probably not change until December, when i graduate.

Testament to my boring life...

Sun, 19 Apr 2009 17:05:36 GMT

I had all my pictures transferred over to my macbook, which organizes them by date...

Besides a few random pictures....

the only pictures i have of the past YEAR or longer... is vegas and new york...

I used to take pictures all the time.... i must not have anything worth taking pictures of in my life...

LAME.

Stoked about May and June though!!!!!

-end of semester
-Miami with the girls for Rum festival
-Vacation with madre
-Savannah
-Dad's wedding
-Derek and I's 1 year... we have to do something fun....
<3

I GOT A MACBOOK!!!!!

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 23:51:42 GMT

STOKED! GRADUATION CAME EARLY THIS YEAR... well the presents at least ....

I have less than 24 hours to write a 10-page research paper.

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 23:59:30 GMT

I have done all the research but I have not written a thing.

FUCK!

I went to the gym today!!!

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 00:28:56 GMT

YAY!

I rode the bike because I am scared to hurt my boobs if I run, they still get sore after doing alot.

I think I am going to have maddie shaved.

She is the harriest cat I know! and she has knots even though I brush her all the time. She is shedding like crazy and I think she would like to be less furry for the summer!

It seems weird to shave a cat but most people I have talked to say its not.

who knew?

I HATE PAPERS!

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 19:58:43 GMT

I have a research paper on interracial relationships and the problems that they have, due in a week!

10 pages!

AHHHH!

All of my other school work is done so that I can focus... but I still cannot focus.

PS. there are some people out there that I really miss and I would love an update on their life!

PS. again. I am worried about Mallorie because she usually posts all the time.. please let me know she is alright!

Back to reality.

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 16:04:40 GMT

So my surgery went great. The pain was not that bad but not pooping for 4 days was horrible! Damn medications!

I laid low all week and spent time with my mom, which was nice.

I only saw Derek twice for an hour each time until Saturday which was actually a good thing. On saturday we went to dinner and a movie (for the first time since our first date because we are cheap and never go to the movies). It was great. I missed him. He surprises me all the time with how much he really cares about me.

My boobs are great! not too big, not to small. Still sore though and I have to do these dumb "exercises" every HOUR!

I miss all of you!

As Brandi said Spring Break will never be like 06 ever again.

BOOBS!

Wed, 18 Feb 2009 01:05:46 GMT

I go in for my pre-op Tuesday! AHHH!

Then my surgery is March 9th!

I am getting very excited but very nervous all at once.

:-)

Valentine's Day

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 02:11:10 GMT

So... I cannot even compete with Mallorie's boy... which overall is okay with me... just warning my readers.

Friday night Derek and I were laying in bed watching TV and I was almost falling asleep when he turns to me and pulls me close and whispers Happy Valentine's Day baby, I love you in my ear (it was 12 am). I was so surprised.

Saturday night Derek was exhausted, he had taken a nap after work and was so hard to wake up but I had a Monster energy drink waiting for him. He finally gets up and I give him his Vday presents...(Gatorade, chocolates, 10 different beers from around the world, and a card) He loved it. So we went to dinner at Matt's Casbah in downtown Melbourne and when we got there our table was not ready so we had a few drinks at the bar and i got to meet the infamous Harry Sac, our bartender, who went to Mel high and I had heard about but never met. haha

Anyways dinner was amazing and delicious! We made it home just in time for the dunk contest... the best Vday present I could have ever given Derek, so we hung out and got more tipsy. :-). He finally gave me my Vday present. A wonderful, perfect card, a teddy bear and chocolates. Exactly what I wanted. It was perfect. We stayed up late talking and cuddling. I did not want to leave this morning.

I miss him already.

We aren't perfect but he makes me so happy.

NEW YORK, I am coming.

Thu, 22 Jan 2009 20:48:37 GMT

So I finally feel satisfied.

Every time i thought about where I was going to end up in the next few years I just was not satisfied but finally I found the answer.

I do not want to go to grad school anywhere but UCF. It is familiar, the new med school will be amazing. It just fits. But I kept feeling like by staying in orlando I would be missing out on something.

I will be graduating in December and in January I am planning on moving to NYC for about 4 months. It will be perfect. I am going to find a place to intern, maybe even a part time job. I will have my personal trainer certification by then so I can make some more money and there is always Starbucks. While I am there I want to volunteer and enjoy the city. I want to do the things that I am not able to do while I am in school.

I am really excited. I am hoping that I may be able to stay with family I have there for a low fare but if not I know I will figure something out. That is why I am planning ahead.

I cannot tell you how happy I am to have finally figured it out!

<3

Where do I want to be?

Sat, 17 Jan 2009 19:07:26 GMT

In a little over a year Grad school will be here.

I know what I want to do. I know how to get it.

But where?

In Florida(20-50,000)? Out of State/private (80-100,000)?

NYC? Atlanta(Emory)?

The pros and cons are overwhelming.

UCF looks like the best choice for me: its cheaper, I already have a place to live, i am positive i can get in, they are building a new med school and children's hospital (which is where I want to work)

But I want to get away and experience something new a different.

Maybe an internship in a new place for a semester before grad school.

I feel like it might be an absolute waste to go to grad school in an interesting place when I already have no life... grad school is just going to be that much worse

I wonder if there are like 4 month internships in spring... at hospitals or something...

So much to think about!

Its over...

Sat, 13 Dec 2008 08:52:10 GMT

Josh and I are not friends anymore.
I do not think he understands yet but he will... or maybe not.. he is THAT selfish.

STRESSED... i am not supposed to be, school is over! But i have to be in Jax for family tomorrow at 12... then stay in st. augustine for amy's wedding... then drive home and leave monday morning for vegas... EARLY... WITHOUT JOSH.

But my birthday with derek, mom, and family was wonderful.

Derek got me beautiful earrings that were far too nice. momma got me a gorgeous pearl ring. nana got me a print of the picasso dove.... i love that the people that love me, know me so well.

I am going to miss my boyfriend... over a week without him.

Vegas and 21 HERE I COME!
<3

GOD DAMNIT

Tue, 09 Dec 2008 19:39:48 GMT

This is my new phrase for everyday life!

Here is the story:
November 28th: My car breaks down on my way to Palm Bay

November 29th: Jump my car to get it to Tire Kingdom (derek and I get into a fight) Car ends up being pretty bad (alternator, generator, blah blah blah) Parts won't be in until Monday. I call into work for the next day (sunday), no one will take my shift. Call my manager she's rude.

November 30th: Wake up at 8 am and go to Palm Bay Starbucks, get their list of all the Starbucks in Orlando and call atleast 15 different stores. No one will cover my shift. EFF them. I do my project and wait for someone to call me, no one does. I call my district manager, she calls my manager, my manager finds someone.

December 1st: Wake up early to finish my final paper and presentation for psychology, go to class, ace it! Cars ready!

December 2nd: Work at 4:30 am, get in trouble for calling out, first time I have done it in three years, give me a break, but no one appreciates me.

December 6th: Rearended some guy. Not to bad my bumper cracked but it is drivable, his bumper was just scratched. Took maddie to vet, 180 dollars, took my car to tire kingdom because of a squeak that was happening all week and now to check my damage. New belt(not from accident) 110 dollars. No new damage besides my bumper. Locked my keys in my car that night.

December 8th: Take a nap after my psychology exam at derek's, when leaving to go to dinner, I notice a spot on the driveway, transmission fluid. Had to go to Auto Zone, and put enough in it to get me to Tire Kingdom, (Derek and I get into another fight!!!) they kept my car over night, even though i was supposed to be leaving to go back to Orlando.

December 9th: Dad came to get me at 8am so I could borrow his car to get to Orlando and study. We go to breakfast and check on my car...IT WAS THEIR FAULT thank god no more money. FIXED!

On top of all this Josh bailed on me for Vegas.

I am not even excited anymore... that is over 300 dollars I have now thrown down the drain since he isn't going... and I get to spend Birthday # 21 with my family only... I love them but...really?

GOD DAMNIT

Where do I even start?

Fri, 31 Oct 2008 00:21:36 GMT

I feel like everyday I wake up thinking... I hope today will be good.... and I really wish my professor would just give me an A

Derek and I are wonderful... better than I ever could have imagined... I still do not believe it... going on 5 months now.

school is as usual kicking my ass. (i am in the library at the moment being one of the annoying people that eat and make crinkling bag noises...HAHA PLUS i am eating carrots and crackers....CRUNCH CRUNCH bitches)

work is still overwhelming even though I never actually work.

roommates suck... I have come to think I am never meant to live with anyone... or maybe just any girls... I love them to death dont get me wrong... but its been a little rocky lately.

its official... i am getting boobs... appt is set. i hope you all will still love me. derek is not happy ... although he says i can do whatever I want. he also says that i will automatically turn into a slut.

I miss a lot of my favorite people. I do not have time right now to make friends... and at that my standards are so high because of you awesome friends i have. so i do homeowork, work, or hang out with derek and the crew.

Thats another issue. I am like the family mom and girlfriend. I give advice, make dinner, clean, hang out.... its ridiculous... one of those other boys needs a girl asap or I may go out of my mind.

I VOTED!<3